"His mind is everywhere."
#YES #sebstan’s best quote about the winter soldier #it’s not that he’s the blank murder puppet or full of programs and routines #it’s that bucky’s mind is all loose threads #hydra cut his connections#so there’s ‘him’ and there’s his ‘identity’ and ‘memory’ and ‘feeling’ #and where everyone has ties and reasons and contexts #there’s just the winter soldier and disconnected fragments of information#he loses his ‘why’ and it works just fine for hydra #because the soldier has all this skill that they can build upon but when he uses them they don’t have meaning anymore #when he’s left to his own devices without a higher perogative #his mind wanders and stumbles over bits and pieces of something anything #a snippet of a song he heard when he was a child #the taste of his mother’s cooking and warmth of the stray dog he’d given a pat in france #but they don’t mean anything to him#it’s just a song just a flavor just fur under his palm #how they relate to him is lost #bucky barnes is isolated and cut off in his own mind and he’s floating in the shards of who he used to be #but without any connections or tethers they can’t ever come together in full to place an ”identity’ to who ‘he’ is #a mission is a tether and thus when the soldier is working the fragments cease to register #but the man who tagged him with a NAME who tagged him as a person as a friend as someone who belonged somewhere #the sudden connection is what fucks the soldier up because it’s so strong and compelling and he can’t fucking let it go #because he hasn’t had anything in so long #for the first time in a long time #this means something #bucky barnes #meta
(Meta from requiodile)
the world is incredible. there are girls in this world, and there are also dogs. you can put melted cheese on any type of potato. sometimes flowers grow even when nobody is there to water them. right now on this same planet where we live there are people who are in love with each other kissing each other on the nose. emotions and colours are both things that exist. everything is so great